“When you go in pursuit of your personal legend, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist)
I know that the Universe has shown us that its got us several times throughout the course of this adventure and this past week we learned that it isn’t only while we’re away from home. Last Saturday was a nice chill day. One of our first mornings to sleep in since we arrived home. I went to meet a friend for breakfast and then I came home and just relaxed. Later in the afternoon Dave and I were going to go for a walk and we couldn’t find the house key. We didn’t resort to how either of us may have responded in the past, with frustration or blame, we calmly retraced our steps. I was so proud of us for staying true to everything we learned! Thank goodness our neighbors that we were staying with had an extra key because if nothing else we could always make more copies. I keep my keys on a carabiner and then clip it on and off my purse when I go places. Since the key was no where in the house we decided to drive to where I had breakfast and see if it happened to have fallen off in the parking lot when I was doing one of my on/off clippings. I was driving my friend’s husband’s big pickup truck, which I was so grateful to have use of and had massive performance anxiety about, so I parked in the grocery store parking lot next to the restaurant instead of right in front of it. I scoured the parking lot while Dave had the genius idea of checking inside the store to see if anyone had turned it in. Low and behold they had!!!! My goodness were we grateful! And we got a major reminder from the Universe that with a little faith and trust we will be taken care of. That, and, there are still good people in this world!
Another realization I’ve had since we’ve been home is that socialization is exhausting and I am SUPER out of practice! 😂 I’ve always been a very social person. It fills me up to be around people. Before Covid I would triple book my life and never had a minute alone. That was my norm/ default. I didn’t know any different. And, I was always so hard on myself whenever I had to cancel for reasons out of my control. I never got upset with people when they canceled because it gave me the gift of unscheduled downtime. You’d think my love and excitement for when things like that happened would’ve taught me to be more intentional about scheduling it on my own but it took Covid for me to actually make the change. Covid taught me that I not only enjoy but actually can thrive in downtime. It also helped me repriortize what really matters and to cultivate an incredible circle of like minded people that could hold me accountable when the triple booking would kick in. Traveling has taught me that I’m also really good at being alone.
Since I have so much alone time when we’re gone I really do want to take advantage of seeing everyone when I have the chance. Thank God for friends and family that make time to chat along the way. Being this busy is exhausting and I can’t even imagine if we were also trying to catch up on six months of life on top of it. It is interesting how in life we create habits and tell ourselves “that’s the way it has always been so it must be working.” What a sad state a fixed mind set like that is. Growth, transition and change is where it is at for me now.
As I have been reconnecting with friends and family I’ve been able to do a lot of processing with people that “get” it. I had been feeling for the past couple weeks since we’ve been home that something felt different this time. I was more exhausted, for the reasons I have already mentioned, and I also have had this kind of unsettled feeling. We were in an Air Bnb the first week and then at our old neighbor’s house last week and now we’re at a friend’s house for the next few weeks. One of my very insightful friends said “it is probably because you don’t a home base yet.” I thought about it and that is the one outlier that is different from the previous two times we’ve come home to visit. Both of those times we had one place that we stayed the entire visit. I know I always find a way to say that even though we’ve been at this for almost two years the learning curve is still steep, this is one of those cases. We should know/be aware of this because that is why we spend at least three weeks in any of the places we visit. That is the sweet spot that helps us feel settled and gives us a chance to really experience where we are. It is interesting when you’re “in it” how you can’t always see with clarity. Thank goodness for friends that know my heart and can help me find my way. We now know that even though we are so grateful the Universe took care of us by helping us with lodging and cars while we’re home, we know that moving forward we’ll want to have a set place for the entire visit because having a regulated nervous system is priceless.
It fills my heart to reconnect with my circle face to face. Yes we made friends the past six months and even got to see some family but being together in person is a whole different thing energetically. I can’t imagine what it would be like if it was spent with people who also didn’t know my heart!!! All the things amiright?
The first two weeks of being home went so fast I have no doubt the next seven are going to continue that way, so we’re determined to take advantage of every minute we have with our people and soak it all in because this next leg there’s a chance we won’t see any familiar faces, although I hope not.
I hope everyone is doing okay. I hope you’re taking care of yourselves and each other. I hope you’re giving yourselves what you need!
Sending you love wherever you are!
P.S. Since a lot of what we’re doing while we’re home, besides catching up on doctor’s appointments, is seeing people, I don’t have a ton of pictures to share. And, I wanted to check in and let you know how we’re doing
